Sue Cox

Sue Cox

Saturday, 16 May 2015

I LOVE NEW YORK!


Just back from New York!!
As always I am amazed by the wonderful people there are in the world!
What a great trip, I was so warmly welcomed by the groups I was speaking too, The NY.Atheists and the NY Humanists, Secularists and Freethinkers. By all of the  warm and funny, kind and  compassionate people who attended and also those who I had other meetings with.
We are taking our workshop
"Winning the Battle of the Abused Brain"  "to New York in early September! We are so excited!
We now have the most fabulous venue at "Thoughtworks" on Madison Avenue, and the brilliant support of that particular group too : thoughtworks.com/new-york
Great always to meet up  with old and good friends, Helen McGonigle and Mary Ward Caplan (Thanks for the lovely  time at Cafe Bleu!) and Pam Spees from CRC (thanks for introducing me to the Oyster bar under Grand Central station!) as well as your unswerving support!
The wonderful anthropologist Dr.David Orenstein, my very dear friend (read his blog: www.paleolibrarian.info) with his indefatigable support, love optimism and care, and his colleague psychotherapist Linda Blaickie who have included me in their book "Godless Grace" out in September!
Great to meet Dr. Jay Kantor, who interviewed me and connected with me so beautifully, and  has already helped our cause, and will be a wonderful friend and fellow traveller.
Delighted also to meet Gloria Rosen, the talented actress and author and hear of her show "Listen can you hear me now!" Another firm bond created.
As usual I am overwhelmed and struck by how many inspiring people I rub shoulders with and am energised by. I haven't named you all but  You ALL give me wings!!!!
I have always loved New York, fond memories of working there and learning there.
Now I can say I love it even more!!!




Sunday, 3 May 2015

The F word!




What the hell gives with people constantly telling me I should "forgive" ??
I am pretty sick of being asked if I "forgive"  the church,  and priest who abused me or the parent that looked the other way!
I am even more sick of the implication that if I DON'T "forgive" them, then there  is something dreadfully a inherently  wrong with ME!
What a very clever bit of emotional blackmail the church has created here! 
A lady I  taught a while ago, said she was worried that I had said "NO" when asked about this, because it was denying myself the release that "forgiveness " could bring, and not allowing  others to know that relief! A rampant catholic of course! Head on one side in "Diana" pose, pitying everyone in sight who didn't follow in her enlightened path like sheep ! 
It is further infuriating when having made my feelings on this matter  quite clear the person in question then proceeds to "explain" to me exactly what forgiveness means! seemingly thinking that it is my ignorance that is the stumbling block!
Well here's the thing!
OF COURSE I understand that it is not a good thing to be eaten up with  resentment - (the route of THAT word being "sentient - to feel" )
so  in effect "re- feeling" what has happened.
That is really quite easy for me to grasp! Of course we do often "re-feel" what happened to us, that is the nature of the abuse legacy, flashbacks occur, and memories are triggered, mostly that is out of our control! But of course I am not going to seek that out!   
OF COURSE  I know that the best way to get "better" is to find a way of accepting what has happened and to transform it in some way! It is what I have been doing for years!
OF COURSE I don't want to be obsessed with revenge, or consumed with bitterness. My life is too short, my time too precious to waste on those narcissists!
That is NOT my point!
This very concept of "forgiveness" is a church word, and has NO place in my head or my heart as far as they are concerned. 
Turn the other cheek! WTF!!
But  just to look at it a bit more carefully, without TOO much flippancy- I looked up some of the definitions.
FORGIVENESS:
TO PARDON, EXCUSE, EXONERATE, ABSOLVE, ACQUIT, LET OFF, AMNESTY, MAKE ALLOWANCES FOR, FEEL NO RESENTMENT TOWARDS, FEEL NO MALICE TOWARDS, HARBOUR NO GRUDGES AGAINST, BURY THE HATCHET WITH,  LET BYGONES BE BYGONES, LET OFF THE HOOK, GO EASY ON, EXCULPATE.
Do any of these words REALLY belong when we think of what this dreadful organisation has done to us and others, the life sentences we have been given?
Do they really think these words belong when people have been traumatised, brain damaged, given shorter life spans?
Feel "forgiveness" for the damage passed down to my children and grandchildren?
And on top of that to have the bloody audacity to pity or patronise us for refusing to enter into this ridiculously  nauseous"healing" fest! 
NO! NO! NO!  I DO NOT - AND WILL NOT
forgive them! What I WILL do is turn my back on them! I will continue to grow and thrive and be happy DESPITE  them and to SPITE them!

Saturday, 2 May 2015

A Kick in the Ass


Many years ago when I began my recovery, I was told by a close friend that as long as I stayed "grateful" I would stay sober and clean and be OK. (not in the same vein or  as cringe making as the "glad" game of course) 
And I  am not always grateful! sometimes I get get complacent, sometimes I take the many good things in my life for granted, sometimes I moan and whinge about minutiae and forget that where I came from and where I am now is a quantum leap. I forget I didn't ever do it alone, many people have helped and inspired me along the way, many still do!
It is when something else happens that I remember what I was told about gratitude, a metaphoric kick in the ass seems sometimes to be needed. Like the time I first met my deaf and speech impaired friends from Verona, listening to their stories, but more than anything, seeing their dignity and humour, despite their abuses,  reminded me, being involved with other cruelly damaged brave individuals reminds me, going to Poland and being with my friends as they were screamed at by ignorant bigoted catholics reminded me.
And now  the terrible earthquake in Nepal.
Last year I was priveleged to host some Nepalese delegates to  the World Humanist conference, and met many others in their party.Utterly delightful people, and so inspiring. Some of the humanitarian work they all do, the generosity of spirit despite Nepal being one of the poorest countries, made my small efforts  seem paltry. I was so pleased to have met them and we became firm friends.With our invitations to go to Nepal and for my husband to go fishing in the highest lake in the World, they left us with lovely memories. They also gave me this beautiful clock, made of bamboo, it is on the wall near my desk,so  I look at it all the time. 


And now I hear of the devastation in that beautiful country, knowing that even if my friends are safe, they face  terrible difficulties , but still they are getting a few messages out, a few messages getting out, and they are taking time to reassure me!!! 
It makes my heart ache and I am reminded again. I am grateful.

Wednesday, 22 April 2015

Feeding frenzy!




After having yet another conversation with someone who is about to embark upon a "fundraising binge" to set up yet another "charity" I feel compelled to shout yet again about what is becoming for me a real Betes Noire! 
In the frenzy to get on top of, underneath or more disturbingly, cash in on the child sexual abuse scandals, there have been a thousand diversions, red herrings, misleading statistics, misunderstandings, lack of support, lack of empathy, indifference and exploitation! 
The abhorrent creation of this  cynical “cottage industry” surrounding these crimes is quite odious, with  “charities” being formed almost daily, mostly of little consequence, and as the survivor world is increasingly suspicious and critical of those who claim  to be “dealing” with this crisis in any kind of effective way.
There has never been a thorough understanding of the effects of childhood abuse, on the part of those purporting to make changes,  nor indeed a real desire to understand. So much easier to adhere to the erroneous  idea that victims are “psychologically’ disturbed, impaired, or unable to think for themselves. That way they can continue to be a disempowered commodity, and for many, a source of income 
There are  a mountain of self appointed  “middle men” who portray  themselves as “champions” and have the “answer’, and the real damage caused by abuse especially by clergy or those in power has been buried underneath this voracious desire to “get a job” and a piece of the pie.
It is with increasing horror that we watch the distasteful and unethical circus, the scramble for “funding” “advertising”  “ambulance chasing”.
Unfounded  opinions abound, diatribes are spouted, facts are distorted, egos are puffed up, while in the entire world there are hundreds of thousands of disaffected people who continue to receive no justice.
The pope and his minions in a  cynical attempt to appear compassionate are  “funding” some of these “charities” ( the ones that "big the pope up" of course!) rather than allow the laws of our lands to haul them through the courts, where they would be made to compensate directly the actual victims of the crimes that they have incubated, perpetrated and covered up. 
Instead they continue to seek, and get,  a "get out of jail free card" which enables the continuation of the thread of exploitation and further abuse. As always -  taking the easy way out.
The people  who run these “organisations” either in in their naivete or greed are taking that funding which ultimately should be awarded directly to individual  survivors, in order to further  fund their operations, which largely consist of  begging everyone for more funding, in a nauseating perpetual merry go round, while the survivors they supposedly support get very little, remain disempowered  and have simply  become a cash cow.
The churches, of all flavours, desperate to get out of  their responsibilities, offer meaningless half hearted  and patronising pastoral “support”  regardless of the fact that they are the very last people to offer solutions when they are in actually  the problem. 
Always with an eye to the main chance to dupe the general public into believing they are actually doing something!
I am calling for all survivors who want to regain their rightful place in the World after being so appallingly abused and mistreated, to rise up and call a halt to this  “trade” by taking back  your power  and being in charge of your own destiny! 
You are a precious irreplaceable unique individual and You deserve better!  
Yes, you may need a little help, perhaps to decide  the right direction for you,  and we will gladly and freely share our experiences and skills, so that  you can harness that exceptional survivor power! 
But don’t accept anything piece meal, don’t be a resource for anyone else or part of someone else’s agenda!
What none of us need is to be abused further! 
Don't feed the vultures!
ENOUGH!

Sunday, 19 April 2015

VOTE VOTE VOTE!!


I have just been "half" listening to a group of potential voters talking about whether they would "take their faith" into the ballot box when they vote next month in our general election. 
A lot of them said they would have  to, because theirs is such a core belief  that they cannot separate their faith from their politics. 
Scary prospect to be unable to separate those two unlikely bedfellows!
So I thought about who I will vote for. 
For me it is crucial that church and state are indeed well and truly separated!
I cannot in all conscience vote for anyone who lives their life according to an ancient mythical book, written by middle eastern peasants with an axe to grind.
I do not want at the head of my government someone who believes in angels and devils, and prays to an imaginary friend for help in affairs of state! 
I cannot bear the thought of someone running the country in these precarious times who thinks that my  precious life is only a proving ground for the next.
It is a horrifying thought to have someone who continues to allow the children of our country to be indoctrinated and exploited by religious schools.
A Government who is too afraid to offend ,follows blindly is  weak and lazy. 
I cringe at the knowledge that in our government, they have created a "Minister of faith"! (and what a prat HE is!)
I would be sickened  to continue with a Prime Minister  who actually sent a delegation party to the vatican for "advice"!!!
Of course, I will give it all my careful thought and I will  not  waste that preciously hard won  vote on people who are afraid to think critically or who consider that religions should have ANY privileges! 
 I have to try and believe there are reasonable intelligent unbiased  politicians out there, so will they please start shouting about it so I have a bit of a chance!!

Thursday, 16 April 2015

Welcome to the World of religious madness!

Heres the latest documentary from my very good friend Zenek from Poland! It speaks for itself!











Wednesday, 8 April 2015

The circus is in town!




Well the vatican circus trundles on, I am told that they are already selling pope dolls in New York (made in China of course!) ready for his expected roadshow in September.(Perhaps we should buy some pins)?

If anyone in that city wants any ideas about real antidotes to that particular medicine show, let us remember how we dealt with it in London in 2010! One of my  proudest moments I would say!


And while we are on the  subject of “sick making” antics, I am also told that one “national”  victim groups here  have been trawling abuse lawyers to pay for adverts on their website. You know the one where victims go for help? 
In our opinion, this  is at best distasteful and at worst is exploitative. But then it IS all about money! 
The same group that has no qualms about accepting money from the vatican,ostensibly to help survivors, while touting the idea that the pontiff is not the narcissistic tyrant with a smily face, but really a cuddly fluffy pussy cat. (perhaps HE should take out an advert!) We are not surprised by it but we are still sickened.
It is the very worst kind of incestuous  behaviour, and If any survivor ever asks me for a lawyer recommendation, I, for one, will make sure that I do not recommend one of those. 
I will always discourage any survivor from using anything other than the most ethical services. and that includes going to a lawyer, therapist, advocate, healthcare professional that cares about them, that has a proven record, has codes of ethics and good practice, puts the survivor first, is clear who they endorse, and don’t just see us as a cash cow. 
YOU deserve the very BEST!
Now of course people have to earn a living, and good professionals have spent years studying and countless pounds to get to the peak of their profession, and indeed  they can be the most amazing supporters, and should be handsomely paid for their fight.. I would also love to see abuse lawyers given far more teeth, they will, after all, be the ones battling  the perpetrators for justice on our behalf.
BUT
The minute money starts to change hands in this way, there  is a change in the dynamics and there is an ethical  bias.
People DO need to know where to go to for legal advice, but far better that they are empowered by knowing HOW to find someone with integrity rather than someone who is paying for advertising! 
Also far better to know that the advertising money is not going back in any way into the church’s PR campaign!
We have been grateful to our lawyer friends for their unswerving support, for coming to our gatherings, standing shoulder to shoulder with us, writing helpful generic (free) advice on our website, and we encourage more of you to do so! 
But we won’t pay you and you will NOT pay us!
Shame that these brilliant legals don't see this,and that it matters who they are seen to align themselves to.
 I hate to think of good professionals being labelled “ambulance chasers” but this voracious scramble for a piece of the “pie” is tantamount to just that!


This diminishes survivors and lawyers alike.
We are in danger of becoming just a bloody commodity!