A Warm Blanket

Today had a strange start, I began my day by speaking on Radio Foyle in Ireland about the obseqeous apology of Sean Brady.They asked me if I could not now give Brady some "credit" for now "doing the right thing"the answer of course was that I did NOT. He only made his snivelling excuses after being in a huddle for days with advisors and spin doctors, for no other reason than to save his own miserable skin. With the audacity that we now have come to expect from these creeps, he as usual tried to turn the "admission" of his crimes into some kind of virtue! I marvel at their arrogance! Then in true fashion he tried to "victimise"  himself because the abused man in question did not want to see him, to be used as a prop for his PR stunt, being further abused in the process. Typically,  they managed to suggest that the fault therefore lay with the victim of the abuses. How strange is it that if a damaged destroyed person does not want to play the vatican's game of charades, then he is the bete  noir!
I reflected on it as I continued my day, and I was thinking about how I had been asked "what COULD they do?"
All I can say is that when I was in Rome two years ago, it was the weekend that the Chilean miners were rescued frrom the ground. We all rejoiced along with everyone else, as we watched them being gently lifted from their tunnel and show their relief.
I remember when I finally was able to talk about my own abuses at last, in my naivity all I really wanted was for someone to gently lift me out of my nightmare, wrap a warm blanket around me and say "there there you are safe now" It didn't happen, and I was further desolate.
I created my own blanket, but it is never quite the same.
Then I met me wonderful people who restored my faith in humanity. Atheists, Humanists, Secularists who showed me compassion and respect, not because an invisible puppet master would punish them if they didn't, and not because thay felt "pity" for me and to do so made them feel sanctimonious, but just because they are altruistic human beings and felt it was the right thing.After feeling my whole life like an outcast I finally was able to take a place as a part of the World.
I can honestly say I have never received any sort of kindness from anybody of "faith" NEVER!
 So today was a good one, it allowed me to think again about what I maybe can do to help and ther is not always that much, but it would be privelege  to be a small part of that warm blanket for someone else, and share their relief as they emerge from that tunnel of despair.
And look forward to celebrating again, our lives saved against all the odds and despite the church, never because of them, when we all meet up in Verona!

Poor Brady "didn't understand"!!!!

Well ! I have heard many things as I see the catholic heirarchy squirm under the weight of their disgusting crimes.I have heard many excuses and many obsequeous snivelling comments. But I have to say that this on takes some beating!! 
Brady "didn't understand" the impact that childhood clergy abuse had on children"! WHAT!
He didn't "understand" that for a child to be raped by a clergyma, that they have been told is next to god, and should ALWAYS be obeyed,had  such an  impact! WHAT!!!
He didn't "understand" that a child having been raped, and sodomised, and threatened, and silenced - when that child has been taught from birth that even to look at your own body, or to touch it (shock horror!) was a "sin" to be "confessed" (in my case to the priest who raped me!) He didn't "understand" that being abused and damaged so badly would destroy any chance of a normal decent life for that child? he didn't "understand" why people who could not bear the shame of having been raped by a priest turned to alcohol , drugs, self harm, even suicide? He didn't"understand" that raping a child is the worst betrayal of body and trust? He didn't "understand" that clergy abuse causes permanent brain damage, and the ripple  effects of it further damage families, and last through generations.WHAT!!!
And HE  feels  BETRAYED?????
I am very much afraid you are going to understand Brady!
How dare you! How FUCKING dare you!!!


http://clericalwhispers.blogspot.co.uk/2012/05/i-didnt-realise-impact-of-child-abuse.html

Brady needs flogging!

So the documentary about Irish clergy abuse finally aired last night. And once again, we are appalled to  the same old- same old- depraved abuses, lies and cover ups, damaged children, ruined lives, smug narcisstic cardinals and bishops. You have to hand it to the catholic church, their  audacity  in the face of the most damning evidence, right in the middle of the World's worst abuse scandals in history, implicated in abuse, secrecy, threats , victim blame, lies, cover ups and even castrations! They still put on a false beatific face and hand out moral dictates to all and sundry! Whyt a show!
Hypocracy, actively promoting homophobia, subjugating woman and  abusing children, are not the acts of any "spiritual" organisation that can possibly hope to ever influence human beings again.
They are calling for Sean Brady's resignation, and rightly so- I would call for also his public flogging and humiliation and a very  long long stay in jail!  But after all, even he is just a puppet, he probably will fall on his sword at some point to deflect from the bigger criminals in the vatican.
When will ordinary decnt catholics stand and be counted? Are you all the same? Just like  every SS officer in the last war who stood by and watched their "superiors" commit atrocities? Can you honestly say that the face of a dysfunctional and narcisstic regime like the vatican is more important than all those human beings destroyed by them? Standing by and watching criminals get away with such shocking behaviour is tantamount to collusion and condoning.  SHAME ON YOU ALL!
In the mean time our love to,  and our admiration for the brave damaged people who bore  their souls and showed their wounds, brave and dignified in the face of the most appaling betrayals .AGAIN!